I am SO glad that today is Friday and that I get to sleep in tomorrow (keep your fingers crossed that the puppy will too!). It definitely looks like IUI may be a go this cycle! CBEFM (Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitory) is still reading low so that’s a great sign! I told John the good news last night & he’s excited too! I am so ready to get this journey with infertility over with!!!
While I have been missing John like crazy, God has really been speaking to me in this time I have alone. He has just given me so many reminders that He is here with me all throughout this journey and all I have to do is trust Him. Isn’t that crazy? That is all He is asking and He will do the rest. True, sometimes it is easier to say it than to do it, but I am filled with such a peace knowing who is in control. And its not me! United Live has recorded a song that brings me to tears everything I hear it because its words describe everything that I am feeling. Here they are:
Its funny that even at the age of 25 I get so excited when I go to the mailbox and get a package! When you are an adult, the mailbox isn’t always fun so when you pull out something besides a bill, you get excited. Yesterday, my new Clearblue Fertility Monitor came in so I spent the evening trying to figure out how to work it. How knew a piece of equipment which required you to POAS (pee on a stick) every morning could be so complicated. But I have to say this new arrival did help me take the news of having to postpone IUI another month a little better. I’m still a little bummed but still very hopeful that maybe this will finally be OUR month. After talking to the doctor yesterday, we also decided to postpone pursuing a second diagnosis to explain my lingering symptoms. I have a feeling that when we finally get around to making a second diagnosis it will be fibromylgia but we will see! At least I can say the past couple days have been very good in the pain department. Outside of hormone-induced headaches, I have been relatively pain-free which is very exciting. I’m hoping this new fertility monitor will help us moving forward in tackling infertility and I’m hoping that July will be a lucky month!