I think in the last several years I have made great strides at discovering who I am and how it relates to chronic illness, infertility, and now motherhood. Sometimes I still wonder if I’m doing the right thing or instead wandering aimlessly but I highly doubt those feelings will ever fade completely. However, I am very very lost in regards to who I am style-wise. I see these young, hip, and fashionable moms and I think “I so wish I had it together like that!” I attempt to stay somewhat current on trends. I visit people.com often and check out Style Watch. I love watching What Not to Wear (and would LOVE the chance to get on the show – hint hint – if anyone would like to nominate me! ha!). But I just can’t put in into practice. Regardless of what Stacy and Clinton says, comfort is important and sometimes with chronic illness, it wins out over style (of course in a perfect universe the two worlds would collide – at an affordable price tag!)
I have tried different phases. Like the rocker phase (hence the blog design). I’ve done the black hair, dark clothes, and black nails (which I may never give up BTW – I PPH dark nail polish). I really wish I could pull off but I’m not sure I can. Sure I love rocking my face off to Skillet and Red and have a girl crush on Abby Scuito but I’m not sure that its really “me.” Because at the same time, I can’t let go of my country roots and love being outdoors barefoot and in jeans. So I’m not really sure if its possible to mix the two or not. So instead I stick to what I know and what’s comfortable. Lately, this is my go-to uniform:
And maybe this is the “real me” and I can just rock my Keens like another hip mom rocks her stilettos.
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I am a dye my hair black and paint my nails black kind of girl. I love piercings and tattoos. I am also a Christian. Those things tend to get you weird looks at church. I have found that trying to find a single look for all aspects of your personality is impossible. You just have to be you without apology. People appreciate a person who is willing to be honestly herself. I found a church where I fit in and am much happier not trying to find myself and just being myself. Great post. Visiting from SITS.
Thank you for your response! It is so nice to have affirmation knowing that I can be into black and tattoos and still be taken seriously as a Christian! I really appreciate your visit and will definitely be following your wisdom to be myself unapologetically!
[…] post that I wish more people read was In Search of Me. I think often in our life situations sometimes it is so easy to get caught up in what is going […]