On my way home from work I heard the song “Fall” by Clay Walker (which I LOVE and have heard many times before) and it sparked something. I know that the song is about a man-woman relationship but I was thinking of how it also speaks of the God-believer relationship. I just wonder what God is thinking during the times I put on a mask to show that I have everything together even though I’m dying inside. Maybe this is what He is saying:
Oh look there you go again
Puttin on that smile again
Even though I know you’ve had a bad day
Doin this doin that
Always puttin yourself last
A whole lotta give and not enuff take
But you can only be strong so long before you break
So..
Fall
Go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
I’ll catch you everytime you
Fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt every fear
Every worry every tear
I’m right here
Baby fall
Forget about the world tonight
All thats wrong and all thats right
Lay your head on my shoulder let it fade away
And if you wanna let go it’s okay
Fall
Go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
I’ll catch you everytime you
Fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt every fear
Every worry every tear
I’m right hereBaby fall
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
To me
Fall
Go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
I’ll catch you everytime you
Fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt every fear
Every worry every tear
I’m right here
Baby fall
I just think that so many times when I am struggling to keep it together, God is there saying “Fall into my arms and I will catch you everytime.” In Him we are able to lose every doubt and fear as He has everything in control and He has prepared the way for us. I am so bad at giving up control. Even as a minister, I find it difficult to let go in certain areas. As far as jobs, money, house, etc I know He’s got that all in His plans but I really struggle with giving up my struggles with IF & Illness. I don’t know if its that I feel like I’ve caused it or what. But this song has reminded me that whenever I’m in over my head I need to fall.