I’ll be honest. I knew today’s weigh-in was not going to be pretty. Why you ask? Because I let my pain get the best of me and I drowned my sorrows the past week in ice cream (it was definitely not to my benefit to discover that Moose Tracks was gluten-free). The past few days I have felt defeated and ignored. I have yet to get a straight answer from my doctor about whether or not I’m going be continue to be treated or will be referred to CMC. My fibro meds were lost in the mail (so if I ever doubted as to whether or not Savella was doing its job now I know how big of a difference it makes in lowering pain levels!). And to top it off, I got my notice in the mail reminding me to set up my appointment for my mammogram. Perfect.
But I came to a decision yesterday afternoon that I was done. I was done wallowing. I was done allowing my emotions to control my eating. I was done allowing the response (or lack thereof) of others to chart my victory or defeat over chronic illness. While I can’t force a response from my doctor or the postal service to be 100% accurate, I can continue to be an advocate for myself and my health. In situations like this, it is not the time to lay down in defeat but to stand up and take charge.
So while my apologies go out to my wonderful teammates, the Outrageous Outlaws, over at the Sisterhood for the gain this week, I can also give my promise that I am not giving up and I will see those numbers drop again! I am a warrior!
So here are my stats:
Starting weight: 164.4
Challenge Starting Weight: 137.4
Challenge Goal: 132
Last week’s weigh-in: 135
Today’s weigh-in: 137
Challenge Change: -1.4
Overall Change: -27.4
So starting today this is my theme song: