I’m in better spirits posting this week. Still holding at 134 which I’m not thrilled about but I’m determined not to beat myself up about it. Pain has been an issue that last week so still no pushups.
I have found myself saying “once the pain subsides, I will start exercising and really buckle down on my diet” but the truth is I’m not sure when (or if ) my pain will subside so I need to be really conscious of my diet now. But I don’t want to be obsessive about it so I’m not sure counting calories is the way I want to go. I’m more interested in learning to make smart decisions more than I am the number on the scale.
I started reading Intuitive Eating last night and after just 2 chapters, I’m hooked. A lot of it seemed like common sense type things but sometimes it takes reading it for the concept to really sink in. I also really like that its written by both a nutritionist and a therapist to not only get behind what you are eating but why you are eating. One of the things that I read was that studies are now finding that children as young as 6 are becoming conscious of their bodies as far as weight goes and start obsessing about their weight. SIX!!! But why wouldn’t they when all they hear their moms (and dads) say “I’m too fat” or “I need to diet.” I don’t want to be one of those moms. I really want to get a healthy relationship with food so I can model that for Abby. Media and society make it hard enough to be comfortable in one’s own skin.
Hopefully next week I’ll have some good news to report!