Pulling It Together

Today marks 6 weeks since my surgery.

SIX WEEKS.

On one hand, it feels like forever since I have been at work and had a shred of a “normal” life. On the other hand, it feels like yesterday that I was discharged from the hospital.

So I’ve decided the next six weeks are going to be spent pulling it together. At home, at work, my family, myself, everything. As I laid in bed last night thinking about some of the things that I want to accomplish and honestly I’m feeling a little apprehensive, but more excited.

I’m ready to find my new normal after this experience as it wasn’t just surgery this time. Things could have gotten really nasty. I wonder what would have happened had I not made myself leave work to go to the ER.At the time of my surgery gangrene was already spreading through my abdominal cavity. What if I waited?

In addition to the “what ifs,” I also find myself worrying with every pinch and pull that another obstruction is forming. One study that I read on the long-term prognosis after an adhesive small bowel obstruction stated the recurrence rate can be as high as 50% within five years. I am 30 years old and have now had 6 abdominal surgeries in 8 years. Those stats honestly scares the snot out of me.

Because of the recent events, I need to get a grip and find a way to push forward and create a new normal that understands this information but also creates a positive life where I can enjoy my family and my life.

So these next six weeks are going to be spent pulling it together. I go back to work tomorrow so I don’t want to start with any of the heavier stuff considering I’m not sure how much energy I’ll have left after work. So I’ve decided I’m going to start with something fun.

One of the things I want to pull together is my beauty routine. After six weeks in a mumu, I’m looking forward to make-up and styling my hair in something besides a ponytail so I’m going to be actually trying some of the many tutorials I have pinned on Pinterest and will be sharing how everything goes!

Cheers to starting the week excited!