thankful for ALL the women in my life

Once you travel the road of infertility and adoption, Mother’s Day changes for you. Not that you are no longer faithful for your mother but for some, it seems to be one day where you feel like you are wearing a scarlet IF on your shirt. You are surrounding by women celebrating the honor of being a mom while you patiently (or not-so-patiently) wait for your chance. Just three years ago, I spent the church service crying in the bathroom wondering if I was ever going to get that chance.

So today I would like to say thank you and celebrate ALL the amazing women in my life! I am incredibly blessed to have a mom that is also my best friend.

A sister who, through all the twists and turns of life, is always there for me.

Strong women of faith in my family who have served as role models throughout my life.

Sisters in Christ who have lifted me up in prayer so many times and have been there through each surgery and treatment with a word of encouragement and a hug.

Bloggy friends who have become IRL friends and though miles separate us, there is a bond so strong that it feels like they are just down the street.

For each and every one of you, I am thankful!


Worth It All

This has been a hard week for me in terms of dealing with my infertility struggles. Usually I can keep a pretty good grip on my emotions when friends or family announce their pregnancies as I really am happy for them. I wouldn’t wish infertility on anyone so I am happy to see them excited about their new addition on the way.


Yet in the midst of the excitement for them, I feel an all to familiar pain in my heart as for a moment my mind flashes back to the negative pregnancy tests, fertility procedures, and finally sobbing in my doctor’s office as we discuss a hysterectomy. For a moment, I acknowledge  that loss and allow myself to grieve. I allow the tears to flow and lift a prayer up to God asking for peace and comfort.


It is then that my thoughts turn to my beautiful daughter that I am so incredibly blessed to be called her mommy. It is then that I remember the day we got the phone call and my husband walked into my office with pink roses and announced we had a daughter. It is then I remember how it feels when she hugs me around the neck and says, “I love you Mommy!”


It is then that I realize it was worth it all.

My beautiful cowgirl


Day 21: Happiness

30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 21: A photo of something or someone that makes you happy


This assignment was SO easy to create! My beautiful and amazing daughter Abby has spent the last 9 days in Virginia getting spoiled by her Nana and Poppy and playing with her cousin Dorothy Anne. I know the trip has been good for all parties involved. My parents get to spend some one-on-one time with Abby and since they live 5 hours away they only get to see her every 2-3 months. Abby also gets the chance to become a little more independent and has time to bond with her cousin (who is 10 months younger than her). I grew up close to a lot of my cousins so I would love for Abby to have that same opportunity. It has been good for my husband and I as well as we have had some downtime just the two of us and we were able to have conversations that didn’t include diapers or SpongeBob.


Thankfully today is the day she comes home! I honestly may kiss her cheeks completely off! I miss her smile and the sound of her laugh. I even miss hearing “Mama, what are you doing?” 4872 times a day and getting kicked in the wee hours of the morning when she has made her way into our bed. I miss this face so much:

My Source of Happiness

It is through this beautiful miracle that I have learned so much about God’s love. She has taught me what unconditional love is. Through her God has taken something ugly and broken and made it beautiful and abundant. Words cannot describe just how thankful I am for being allowed the chance to parent such an amazing little girl!


What is making you smile today?