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Wednesday Weigh-in: Shrinkvivor Week #6

The past week has been busy!  Still not feeling on top of my game but we had a great weekend celebrating my birthday (yes, I like to draw out celebrations as long as possible!).  Still waiting on news from my rheumatologist on what medication we are going to try next so I am anxiously waiting for the phone to ring.

In other news, I officially registered for my first 5k as a member of Team Gluten-Free!  I will be running the Jingle Jog 5k which is a part of the Thunder Road Marathon event on December 11th!  I decided that I still wanted to take part even if I can’t run the whole thing.  Its really important to me to help raise awareness for Celiac as well as donations help to provide scholarships for children to go to Celiac summer camp where they can learn not only how to control their Celiac but know that they are not alone!

As usual, we had two challenges again this week – one physical and the other non-physical. The physical challenges are what count towards team immunity. This week’s physical challenge was to count your minutes – another challenge re-do.  While I was more active this week, I didn’t count minutes (awful I know).  I tried to walk as much as possible but didn’t know what to count as “active exercise.” For example, we did a lot of walking on Saturday at the zoo but I didn’t think that I could count it.  I also took several short walks with Abby but wasn’t sure about those either.

The non-physical challenge was to expose yourself.  You can check out my Exposed post here!  It was seriously a very liberating experience!  But I will be honest, I think I would have had a harder time doing it 37 lbs ago.  However I think I’ve made progress with accepting myself in the last 10 months that goes beyond the number on the scale.

So now onto the business at hand . . . This morning the scale said: 126.4! So I had a loss of 1 lb! So I am only 1.4 pounds away from my goal weight and puts my Shrinkvivor loss at 7lbs!!!! So hopefully I am able to stick around for another week!  I can’t believe I made it to week 6 without being exiled! One step closer to that awesome bike being mine!

So here are my stats:

Starting weight: 164.4

Challenge Starting Weight: 133.4

Challenge Goal Weight (11/2): 128

Last week’s weigh-in: 127.4
Today’s weigh-in: 126.4
Change: -1


Overall Change: -38

Challenge Change: -7

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Wednesday Weigh-in: Shrinkvivor Week #5

Shrinkvivor Challenge at the Sisterhood!The past week has been frustrating.  It has been a game of trial and error with new medication in hopes of finding relief from my fibromyalgia pain.  The first medicine put me in a trance and I could hardly complete a sentence.  The second one I am allergic to so its back to the drawing board.  So needless to say my focus hasn’t been on the challenge much this week.

As usual, we had two challenges again this week – one physical and the other non-physical. The physical challenges are what count towards team immunity. This week’s physical challenge was to count your miles – basically a redo of the first week’s challenge.  Because of pain and meds, I didn’t get any miles.  Boooooo!

The non-physical challenge was to journal everything you eat. Didn’t get this one done either.  Told you I wasn’t focused this week.  I’m trying not to beat myself up though.  I still tried to be very careful with portion sizes and make smart decisions.  Being off my game for one week won’t kill me (hopefully it won’t land me on Exile Island either but if it does it just means it was my time).

Needless to say I was a little worried about hopping on the scales.  My family came to visit this week  to celebrate my birthday early (which involved yummy GF brownies  – but I did good restraining myself!).  I got lectured on being careful not to lose too much weight.  They (including hubby) are worried that I am just  not eating enough.  So now comes the delicate balance of maintaining since I am really close to my goal weight.  I did get to go shopping this weekend (since I seriously have NOTHING that fits except for socks & shoes!) and was able to buy size 3/4 jeans!  Seriously that is unheard of!  The sizes in the store generally run a little big but still it felt good to fit into these jeans and have clothes that actually fit!

I completely forgot to take a picture this morning as I was in a hurry so here is my number: 127.4! So I had a loss of 1.8 lbs! So I am below my challenge goal!

So here are my stats:

Starting weight: 164.4

Challenge Starting Weight: 133.4

Challenge Goal Weight (11/2): 128

Last week’s weigh-in: 129.2
Today’s weigh-in: 127.4
Change: -1.8

Overall Change: -37

Challenge Change: -6

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How big are your dreams?

Sunday morning I woke up ragged.  I spent most of the night tossing and turning trying to find a comfortable position.  What sleep I did get was filled with crazy dreams (like becoming a Sister Wife) courtesy of Tylenol PM.  So when my husband kissed me goodbye I sat on the edge of the bed trying decide whether to get ready for church or to crawl back under the covers and pray for more sleep.

My new medication was a flop.  I felt like I couldn’t keep my eyes open or complete a full sentence without losing my train of thought so its back to the drawing board so the flare is continuing.  More than once this weekend I ended up in tears because it felt like my joints were going to snap.

But as I sat my feet on the floor, I decided that I needed church more than I needed sleep.  I could take a nap later.  I needed refreshment and encouragement.  I needed the comfort of the Spirit.  Not that I couldn’t be refreshed by the Spirit at home but I needed the fellowship that can only be found among my fellow believers.  So I dug through my closet in hopes to find something that somewhat fit and got myself and Abby ready for church.

We made our way to church and after the music, John took Abby to the nursery as the sermon began.  From the beginning, I could feel God pulling on my heartstrings.  The sermon was on Moses and focused on the scene that took place at the burning bush.  Once God gave Moses the command to go back to Egypt to free His people, Moses gave a long list of excuses.  You see, Moses had a dream for the Isrealites but his dream was limited.  He did not see the whole picture.

The sermon then became more person.  Rob asked the question, “Do YOU dream God-sized dreams?”  He made the statement that he has never met someone who didn’t want to do great things or who didn’t want to make a difference in the world but we often limit ourselves by not allowing God to take control.  We need to take that step to live dangerously and dare to dream big.

So the while I am listening, the question that keeps plaguing me is, “Is the dream of being pain-free a God-sized dream?”  Or am I selling God short?  Lately, I have definitely felt like Moses in the wilderness wandering around in almost a state of exile.  I haven’t lost my faith or felt like God has deserted me but I do feel like at times I have blinders on because of my pain.  Its as if I cannot be used until the pain is gone.  I have the opportunity to do some small things now but the big things will happen when my pain is gone.  That’s when I can really be used!

So as I played this question over and over in my head I began to realize that I wasn’t dreaming big enough.  Is dreaming of being pain-free a bad thing?  Absolutely not and I hope to be there one day (soon!) but in the meantime I still serve a big God who can do big things regardless of my pain.  God used my SITS day and the outpouring of encouragement and support as a reminder the He still has big plans for me.

So my question for you is – are you dreaming God-sized dreams?