I’m am soooo glad its Friday! I’m survived the world’s longest work week! I swear it was like it all hit the fan and then landed on my desk! So in celebration of the fact that its Friday, I’m going to go home, put on sweats & spend the evening with my 2nd husband, Gil Grissom (hahaha) and watch CSI reruns all evening and eat pizza! I will have to do some laundry at some point during that time or else I’ll be spending the rest of the weekend nude! And since John went to visit his parents, it would be no fun! Then my plan for tomorrow is to SLEEP IN, do a little shopping, and then learn some more Hebrew. Oh and try to keep my mind off the 2ww! We will have answers by Tuesday!
Its been a week since I’ve blogged mostly because I wasn’t sure what to say. I’ve had so much running through my mind! I had 3 doctors appointments last week. Two were IF related and third was with a rheumatologist to see if we can find the source of my pain. We are thinking that it is mostly likely fibromyalgia but he doesn’t want to put all of the eggs in one basket until all of the test results come back. I really just want some answers! I haven’t felt well at all this week so that is another reason for not posting. I am tired of feeling negative! I’m halfway through the 2ww but don’t even feel like being positive about it. I think a part of me is just ready to have it over with and move on and live life again. Right now I feel like so much is hinged on IF appointments and Endo/FMS appointments. At least if we put IF behind us for a while, we will only have to focus on 1 set of appointments. I just want to be able to be positive again. Maybe next week…..
I am so glad its over! Today was definitely very painful. I’m very glad that I had John there or i really might have kicked the doctor in the head! He was very blunt and honest with us but we appreciated his advice. He also said that everything is in the Lords’ hands and miracles happen so that is what we are holding out for! If this were to work, we would be having an anniversary baby! I could imagine no better way to celebrate our 3rd anniversary! But it feels good to know that John and I are on the same page when it comes to the next step if the IUI fails. The next two weeks are going to be so long!