I’ll admit it. This challenge was a flop for me. My weight is right where it was when I started (which I know could be worse, I could have gained but still not losing = no success in this challenge). I feel disappointed the most for my teammate. For whatever reason I just couldn’t get checked-in. Pain was a big issue and I’ll admit that and also admit that there wasn’t anything I could do about it so as I’m taking steps to my new normal I refuse to beat myself up about it.
However, that doesn’t mean that I’m not going to work on changing it.
My work fridge is now stocked with healthy snacks to avoid trips to the vending machine.
My workout bag is packed to start working out on my lunch hour, even if its just walking on the treadmill.
I’m going to back to planning our meals for the week as I think the entire family suffers when I wait until 5pm to ask “what do you want for dinner?”
I downloaded the pushup app and myfitnesspal on my phone so I am determined to make this work. I will have guns by Disney and my skinny jeans will fit again.
While I won’t call the challenge a success, I’d call it a swift kick in the rear to make diet and exercise a priority in my new normal.
It hasn’t really been a good week for me health-wise. I’ve been plagued with migraines and fatigue since Sunday. I’ve lived off of Kix cereal the last two days because of nausea. In the last 5 days, we have had only 1 day of sunshine. Today its raining buckets which is leaving my joints longing for my bed and a heating pad. Hubs is worried but sadly I think its just a part of life that I’ve got to learn to deal with. I just wish it didn’t include having to lay down every evening at 7pm.
The good news is that I posted a loss this week! Not a big loss but I’ll take what I can get. I’m down to 133.5 which puts me right back where I started. It definitely could have something to do with living off Kix the last couple days but I’m just going to take it as a loss and enjoy it. I’ve been trying to make better decisions and listen to my body for when I am actually hungry versus just in the mood to eat so hopefully that will lead to more loss in the future.
Starting Weight: 133.4
Goal Weight: 128
Current Weight: 133.5
I’m in better spirits posting this week. Still holding at 134 which I’m not thrilled about but I’m determined not to beat myself up about it. Pain has been an issue that last week so still no pushups.
I have found myself saying “once the pain subsides, I will start exercising and really buckle down on my diet” but the truth is I’m not sure when (or if ) my pain will subside so I need to be really conscious of my diet now. But I don’t want to be obsessive about it so I’m not sure counting calories is the way I want to go. I’m more interested in learning to make smart decisions more than I am the number on the scale.
I started reading Intuitive Eating last night and after just 2 chapters, I’m hooked. A lot of it seemed like common sense type things but sometimes it takes reading it for the concept to really sink in. I also really like that its written by both a nutritionist and a therapist to not only get behind what you are eating but why you are eating. One of the things that I read was that studies are now finding that children as young as 6 are becoming conscious of their bodies as far as weight goes and start obsessing about their weight. SIX!!! But why wouldn’t they when all they hear their moms (and dads) say “I’m too fat” or “I need to diet.” I don’t want to be one of those moms. I really want to get a healthy relationship with food so I can model that for Abby. Media and society make it hard enough to be comfortable in one’s own skin.
Hopefully next week I’ll have some good news to report!