TGIF! IUI Prep Is A Go!

I am SO glad that today is Friday and that I get to sleep in tomorrow (keep your fingers crossed that the puppy will too!). It definitely looks like IUI may be a go this cycle! CBEFM (Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitory) is still reading low so that’s a great sign! I told John the good news last night & he’s excited too! I am so ready to get this journey with infertility over with!!!


God is absolutely amazing!

While I have been missing John like crazy, God has really been speaking to me in this time I have alone. He has just given me so many reminders that He is here with me all throughout this journey and all I have to do is trust Him. Isn’t that crazy? That is all He is asking and He will do the rest. True, sometimes it is easier to say it than to do it, but I am filled with such a peace knowing who is in control. And its not me! United Live has recorded a song that brings me to tears everything I hear it because its words describe everything that I am feeling. Here they are:

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise
In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days
All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord
The second verse is what really gets to me. Its easy to have full faith and trust when times are easy and you’re on a mountaintop. But its during those times of chaos and confusion that its easy to question but its so fulfilling to know that even in those times–the times of sickness and infertility–that God is still Sovereign! Praise the Lord!
Last night, I taught the middle schoolers at church and we talked about spiritual gifts and took a spiritual gifts inventory. I had taken one previously but I knew for some reason that I needed to retake it last night. My top three gifts were music, discernment, and faith. I knew about the top two but I think God was using the last one as a reminder of all that He has brought me through this far and by continuing to fully trust in Him that He will carry me the rest of the way through. I have just be so full of peace that words can’t explain it!
And wouldn’t you know that it looks like we might be able to do the IUI this cycle after all! I’ve been using my CBEFM (Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitor) and OPKs (Ovulation Predictor Kits) and so far there is no sign of ovulation (not a hint of second line to be seen) so it looks like it will probably be the beginning of next week before I ovulate meaning that there is a big chance that we will be able to go through with the IUI procedure! God has worked it out to have perfect timing! I am just so filled with excitement that I could pop! I can’t wait to tell John! Woo-hoo!!!!
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My New Fertility Monitor: Moving Forward in Tackling Infertility

Its funny that even at the age of 25 I get so excited when I go to the mailbox and get a package! When you are an adult, the mailbox isn’t always fun so when you pull out something besides a bill, you get excited. Yesterday, my new Clearblue Fertility Monitor came in so I spent the evening trying to figure out how to work it. How knew a piece of equipment which required you to POAS (pee on a stick) every morning could be so complicated. But I have to say this new arrival did help me take the news of having to postpone IUI another month a little better. I’m still a little bummed but still very hopeful that maybe this will finally be OUR month. After talking to the doctor yesterday, we also decided to postpone pursuing a second diagnosis to explain my lingering symptoms. I have a feeling that when we finally get around to making a second diagnosis it will be fibromylgia but we will see! At least I can say the past couple days have been very good in the pain department. Outside of hormone-induced headaches, I have been relatively pain-free which is very exciting. I’m hoping this new fertility monitor will help us moving forward in tackling infertility and I’m hoping that July will be a lucky month!