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What I Wish I Was Wearing Wednesday

I’ve totally been a slacker this week with taking pictures for What I Wore Wednesday. I’m having an internal argument with my body these days. Not the same argument that I wrote about yesterday but instead one regarding where I was one year ago weight-wise and where I am now.

 

This time last year I had just reached my goal weight of 125 marking a 43 lb weight loss in a year! I was so excited to slide into those size 3/4 pants at Maurices. This year I’m sitting about 15lbs heavier. Not where I want to be at all. I will acknowledge that 125 was probably too low a goal to maintain for my post-menopausal body. The crazy high pain levels, surgery, and post-op Megace treatments have not helped matters. However, I still need to take ownership that my poor decisions have contributed as well (even though its very tempting to blame it all on the Megace since weight gain is the #1 side effect).

 

While my husband really likes my body at its current weight (I gained my curves back!), I would like to lose at least 5-8lbs. I think I would feel much more comfortable if I weighed between 130-135. So while I’ve been browsing Pinterest for cute outfit ideas, I’ve also been building a motivation board to help get me back in gear to make some healthy decisions. I’m not going to say diet but rather a lifestyle change. As much as I looooove my Dr. Pepper, its about time that we broke up. The holidays aren’t exactly the best time to kick the sweets to the curb, I know its a choice I won’t regret. I’m hoping the Sisterhood will have a challenge that kicks off after Christmas!

 

Enough of the shop talk – let’s talk clothes shall we? While I stunk at taking pictures this week, I did plenty of pinning! These are some of my favorite outfits from Pinterest* for what the series should be named “What  I wish I Was Wearing Wednesday” instead:

Gray-Holiday-Cocktail-Dress

Source: Birdsnest.com.au

*Dress/Outfit is no longer available*

Words cannot describe how much I love this dress! I feel like its a bit edgy but feminine at the same time! I would have to trade out the shoes thought. Maybe black or even a pop of color like pink.

Black-Sequin-Holday-Dress

Source: French Connection

Lucinda Sequin Dress

This would be so fun for a Christmas or even a New Years party! What girl doesn’t love sequins & sparkles?

Collection Designer Fashionable Holiday Dresses

Source: Net-A-Porter Fashion Fix

See above.

Fun Holiday Outfit Jeans Blazer and SequinsSource: Tumbler

This one is more causal but still includes some sparkle! Love the mix of the sequins and animal print!

Let-It-Snow-Casual-Holiday-OutfitSource: Let It Snow – Polyvore

This is a totally casual outfit but I think it would be perfect for a holiday shopping trip or hanging out with family and friends!

If you got to pick a dream outfit for the holiday season, what would it be?

***Important Note: If you love these outfits as much as I do and want to add them to your favorite Pinterest boards, please click through by clicking on the image or the link below so that you can pin the outfit to its original source***

chronic style

my dream behind chronic style

Where i came up with Chronic Style

Chronic Style has slowly developed over the last few years but in 2018, it will become a major piece of A New Kind of Normal. I wanted to have a catchy name for any posts that referenced anything style, beauty, or fashion related (which didn’t happen very often). There was a phase in blogging history a few years ago where link-ups were everything and memes were a close second and they always had these great, catchy names. If was easy, if you weren’t careful, to be participating in a different link-up/meme every day and not post any real content but it was out of participating and creating these posts that I decided that I needed to come up with a name.

The first major style related link-up that I can remember participating in that really impacted both my blogging and me personally was What I Wore Wednesday over at The Pleated Poppy. This was Lindsey (the creators) mission behind created What I Wore Wednesday aka WIWW:

welcome to “what i wore” at the pleated poppy!  share with me your fashion posts and we can inspire each other!  i started this originally as motivation to get out of my daily uniform of jammies or sweats, but now i am encouraged and held accountable to put a few extra minutes aside for myself and try new things.  i’d love for you to join me!

I was still working at the time and at the office I felt like I was wearing the same thing all the time but specifically outside of work, I felt like I lived in the same uniform (which oddly enough I didn’t have to wear at work but created for myself in my personal life). I lived in jeans and Old Navy t-shirts. I remember writing this post way back in 2010 where I was searching for my own sense of style. Shortly after I discovered What I Wore Wednesday and began to think, what if I am not the only one struggling with this? What if I am not the only spoonie trying to figure out how to balance being comfortable and maintaining a personal style?

The dream of Chronic Style was born. It has developed slowly, especially the first several years as I just added in posts here and there but if you have noticed, the posts have become more frequent over the last year or two as I have begun to figure out for myself what my personal style is and how to start to create some kind of balance.

As I stated in my 2018 goals, Chronic Style will become a staple feature here at A New Kind of Normal. It even has its own logo for future content:

Chronic Style Post Header

I love the tagline “reclaiming the confidence we were born to rock” as that is the main mission behind the series. To quote what I said on my welcome back post:

A main goal focuses on reclaiming our confidence. Makeup doesn’t make me feel beautiful, it makes me feel confident. It gives me an avenue through which I can express my creativity. I can feel feminine. I can feel edgy. I can feel both. I want for each of one of us to find an avenue through which we can all reclaim this confidence. I want us to feel good about our bodies and feel spunky, sassy, sexy, fierce, creative, bold, audacious, unique, and on and on. I want that for all of us. Each and every one of us deserve to feel like the most rockin’ chick on the planet.

Do you get as pumped up reading that as I do? I sure hope so!

Some possible post options for the Chronic Style series include:

  • Monthly Makeup Baskets
  • Makeup/Style Hauls
  • What I Wore Wednesday or Outfits of the Day/Week
  • Style Lookbooks
  • Makeup Tutorials
  • Makeup/product Reviews
  • Fashion/Style Wishlists

These are just some basic options.

What I would LOVE to hear is what kind of things you guys would like to see and read from this series! Please share your thoughts in the comments!

chronic illness

Recent Test Results

I finally received the latest round of test results. I had the blood work done two weeks ago and one set of results last week and the second set came in today.

My endo doctor was the most concerned about my thyroid. I have always tested as borderline but we went ahead and treated in hopes that maybe it would take away some of the issues I was having. Because of the myriad of issues, I face we were never quite sure which symptoms tied to which illness. But when I rebelled and stopped my medications, she was concerned primarily about my thyroid function without medication.

In case you didn’t know, symptoms of hypothyroidism (or low thyroid function) include fatigue, increased insensitivity to cold, constipation, dry skin, unexplained weight gain, puffy face, hoarseness, muscle weakness, elevated blood cholesterol level, muscle aches, tenderness, and weakness, pain, stiffness, and swelling in joints, heavier than normal or irregular menstrual periods, thinning hair, slower heart rate, depression, and impaired memory (information from mayoclinic.com). There is also a possibly a connection between low thyroid function and infertility (which is what initially pushed us to start treatment when my tests first came back borderline). Obviously, your thyroid is an important part of your body and if you have some of the same symptoms that are either unexplained or not responding to other treatments, have your doctor check your thyroid function.

When the results came in, they showed that my thyroid function was not normal and treatment was definitely necessary. I do not have the numbers off-hand but I have definitely moved from the borderline category to the treat category. I mentioned in my last What I Wore Wednesday post that I was having issues wearing my contacts because my eyes were drying out so bad and it appears to be related to my impaired thyroid. As I have started back my medication, I can finally wear my contacts again! Woo-hoo! I am hoping maybe my joints and muscles will loosen up a bit too as treatment progresses!

As far as everything else, NORMAL. Sigh. Why does it have to be frustrating to get normal results? Wouldn’t most people jump for joy? Believe me, I am not asking for an additional illness as I’ve got plenty thankyouverymuch but sometimes with chronic illness you are hoping for some sort of answers even if its in the form of a new diagnosis. I feel like we have so many unexplained issues and have had so little results with treatments recently that you hold out hope for any bit of information that may hold an answer such as if my SED rate or ANA came back abnormal, it would indicate something autoimmune going on which could open up the doors for other possible treatments. But, alas, all normal. The good news is that my liver function is back to normal (it has gotten really wonky prior to my bowel obstruction) so that I can try taking an anti-inflammatory to see if it helps my joint pain. I had success this past spring but then my liver count shot up so we had to stop so we’re keeping fingers crossed! My rheum is concerned about how much of a role endometriosis is playing in the current level of pain but of course there is no real way to know. We are going to hope that the antiflammatory helps with some of the fibromyalgia symptoms and go from there.

My next step is setting up a follow-up appointment with my endo doctor to discuss disability options. I’m not sure if the results make me more or less anxious for the next step…