Overcoming Self-Consciousness When Battling Endometriosis

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Today kicks off week 1 of the Blogging for Endometriosis Awareness campaign! This week’s post topic is how endometriosis has affected you physically. Linkup will be live throughout the rest of the month so you can link up anytime! Before to check out posts from fellow endosisters who have linked up and share posts on Facebook, Twitter, and Google+ to help spread awareness & use the tag #bloggingforendo! Don’t forget to share the word about our Blogging for Endometriosis fundraising campaign!

My journey with endometriosis started over ten years ago. Its hard to believe because it feels like it was just yesterday in some ways and it feels like it has been an eternity. Endometriosis has changed so many things about my life. I have lost so much time enduring countless surgeries and treatments, lost the ability to do some of the things I loved, lost my fertility, and lost my ability to lead the life of a “normal” 32 year old. Instead I am in the midst of filing disability.

Over the last six years of blogging, I have shared many posts about how endometriosis has affected my life physically. I have shared about the long term effects endo can have on your body and how exhausting dealing with pain on a daily basis can be. Probably one of the most popular posts I have ever written was sharing about the unspoken side effects of endometriosis over at the Fight Like A Girl Club.

One of the things I struggle with the most these days is overcoming self-consciousness and feeling insecure with the way I look. It goes deeper than worrying about exposing my scars. I feel like nothing in my body is the same anymore.

Going into menopause at the age of 26 and taking numerous hormonal treatments, my body shape has completely changed. Treatments make my weight flucuate. I carry weight in different areas than before. Between being bloated and endo/adhesion pain, it can make wearing certain types of clothes difficult. I wish overalls would come back in style so I wouldn’t have to worry about where waistbands hit in relation to my scars. Is that pathetic?

I feel like nothing is my body is working the way its supposed to. The hysterectomy was supposed to end my struggle with endometriosis and it hasn’t. My upper GI is completely paralyzed and my lower GI isn’t far behind. I feel like I’m in the cycle of taking medications to deal with side effects of the medications I need to function. There are days that the most minimal tasks can suck everything out of me. I feel like I am an 80 year old trapped in the body of a 32 year old woman.

All of these things make me feel so self conscious about my body. The way it looks. The way it functions. There are times it feels like its not even mine anymore. Maybe thats the reason why I have gotten into playing with make up recently. Makeup is fun to wear not matter what size you are. Maybe thats the reason why I have been loving having purple hair. I am trying to regain a piece of the confidence I seemed to have lost throughout the years. I am constantly reminding myself that I am wonderfully made by my Creator and that is what makes me beautiful.

I am work in progress.

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Spoon-Friendly Cleaning With Swiffer

Meet my 3 dirt producers:

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In a house with a 4 year old and two dogs that shed a ton, my floors are in constant need of attention. I seriously think I could sweep five times a day and still end up with dog hair tumbleweeds. Add in the difficulties of getting around with my chronic pain issues, I need a way to clean, an effective way to clean, that doesn’t involve getting up and down off the floor. I would need one of those “I’ve fallen and I can’t get up” buttons.

With all of these factors involved, we have been a huge fan of Swiffer products for years! I’m not sure how many of the Swiffer vacs we have gone through with the daily abuse it must endure in this house but it is worth absolutely every penny! The main problem I have is forgetting to plug it back up to charge thanks to my lovely brain fog. Whoops! So when I heard about the new Swiffer Sweep & Trap, I was very excited to give it a try!

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It was very easy to put together and uses the same Swiffer dry cloths as their other products so there was no need to buy additional cloths. No power is required so no need for batteries or remembering to plug it up to charge. The rotating blades pick up the large particles that go into the easy to empty dirt bin while the dry cloth picks up the small particles. It picks up the dog hair wonderfully but if you have as hairy of beasts as mine, you will want to clean the rotating blades after use to keep from the hair from getting stuck around the blades but don’t worry, it is super easy to do! Even if you have issues with your hands like I do!

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Results of the Swiffer Sweep & Trap On The Dog Hair Tumbleweeds

This product is most definitely a welcomed member of our Swiffer family and it makes cleaning up after my little dirt factories a breeze! It makes things quick and easy with no bending. It is super light weight. I give it two spoon-friendly thumbs up! Definitely allows me to embrace life’s little messes (or in some cases, big hairy messes) without a struggle!

If you are interested in checking out the Swiffer Sweep & Trap, you can find it at your closest Target!

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Do you have any spoon-friendly products that make cleaning easier?

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