It has definitely been a week that makes me want to say “Thank God It’s Friday!” I do not know what has made this week go by so slow! Work has been quite this week with my boss out of town so that has made time go by slowly. But I think starting this new medicated cycle has made it really hard to focus because all I seem to think about is infertility and trying to get pregnant. Today was the last day of taking the drugs so maybe I won’t feel quite as consumed next week. Well come to think of it, John will be out of town all next week so I’ll be lonely so my luck I will be lonely and stressed! Hahaha! Sounds like a chick-flick and ice cream fest to me! Anyone want to join me? LOL. I’m really looking forward to this weekend though as we’re getting ready to leave for Thomasville to spend time with John’s family and relaxing. I really hope it will keep my mind off of everything. I think my goal next week will be to fine tune our new budget. We went looking at new cars last night just to the sake of curiosity and found several that we liked. So we are really wanting to get our current car paid off asap. I would love to be debt free (outside of student loans of course) in time to have a baby! I may go through shopping withdrawals in the meantime but I think in the end it will all be worth it! Gosh as an adult there is so much to think about!! LOL. I’m off to hit the road toT-ville! God Bless!
Today is the type of day where it is hard to stay positive. Today is my fourth day of hormones for this cycle and I can tell that they have definitely kicked in. Not only am I becoming more emotional with each passing hour, but my lower back is killing me! Ugh. Oh the things we do in hopes to get pregnant! Even with this frustration, I have a verse that keeps coming back to mind. Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Coincidence? I think not! I know that now is my time to trust Him in everything and find delight in all that He has blessed me with in my life. Its so crazy how God does so many little things to remind us how He is with us and reminds us that He does in fact have a plan. Today, on the Trouble TTC board on the nest, a fellow nestie announced her BFP this morning and I just got so excited for her! I had so much joy bubble up b/c it was a reminder that one day it will in fact happen! Today for her maybe next month for me! It is so refreshing to know that I serve a living and gracious Savior who has my best intrests at heart! I honestly would not know how to get through all of my healthy problems and infertilty without God’s strength. Words just can’t express all that I am feeling right now (I told you that I was emotional!). So before I start crying, I will stop writing for now! God bless!
Its funny that even at the age of 25 I get so excited when I go to the mailbox and get a package! When you are an adult, the mailbox isn’t always fun so when you pull out something besides a bill, you get excited. Yesterday, my new Clearblue Fertility Monitor came in so I spent the evening trying to figure out how to work it. How knew a piece of equipment which required you to POAS (pee on a stick) every morning could be so complicated. But I have to say this new arrival did help me take the news of having to postpone IUI another month a little better. I’m still a little bummed but still very hopeful that maybe this will finally be OUR month. After talking to the doctor yesterday, we also decided to postpone pursuing a second diagnosis to explain my lingering symptoms. I have a feeling that when we finally get around to making a second diagnosis it will be fibromylgia but we will see! At least I can say the past couple days have been very good in the pain department. Outside of hormone-induced headaches, I have been relatively pain-free which is very exciting. I’m hoping this new fertility monitor will help us moving forward in tackling infertility and I’m hoping that July will be a lucky month!