Granted I am extremely thankful for my mother today but it is just another painful reminder of my infertility. This morning at church was the normal sermon on mothers and giving out gifts to the oldest and youngest mothers. They also had all of the mothers stay where they were and everyone else was to go from their seats and greet all of the moms and their families. I felt so out of place. 4 years ago I was certain that I would have been celebrating Mothers Day for at least the second time. So instead I spent 10 minutes crying in a bathroom stall while the childrens choir sang songs about their moms. What hurts is knowing that I was not the only one there was was hurting. I know there were others who have faced infertility or multiple m/c. I mean I understand why the church feels the need to celebrate Mother’s Day (even though its not necessarily tied to the church) but I just wish that there was more thought put into how it relates to ALL women. Its not always a happy day and not everyone gets to celebrate with breakfast in bed or flowers and gifts. There are some of us who spend the day with tears in our eyes and knots in our stomachs. So I send hugs out to all of you who may be sharing my pain today and hope that each of you take the time to do something special for yourselves this week. We may not all be mommies yet but we are strong and we will endure.