This has been a really tough weekend. I have had so much on my mind. My disease has definitely trapped me this weekend. I’m having a hard time getting out from under the pain and everything else that goes along with it. Last night I broke down. I am just so tired of not being able to live life like a normal 25 year old. I’m tired of doctors saying that they can fix me when they can’t. I’m tired of people acting like they care when they really don’t. It’s just so frustrating! And I can feel myself starting to retreat in efforts to protect myself. And I don’t want to live this way. I definitely think I’m going to try to find a counselor this week to help me make sense of everything. Between infertility, illness, and life, its just become too much. I’m really hoping that tomorrow is a better day.