chronic illnessinfertility

Frustrating weekend

Ugh, I have had such a frustrating weekend! Let me start by saying that I had a wonderful time with John’s family. It was so good to see them and spend some quality time with each of them. Vickie and I did some mother/daughter bonding over shopping Saturday afternoon and here’s where it gets frustrating. I saw some of the cutest clothes already out for fall but in the back of my mind I kept asking myself, “Could I wear that if I get pregnant?” I had the same problem last fall and the fall before that. I’ve been asking myself this question for almost TWO YEARS!! I am so over it! But I am aware that I cannot put my life on hold because of infertility so I will probably be back out shopping this weekend! Hahaha! Especially since my mom will be in town 🙂

The other frustrating part of the weekend was that my pain was back full force. I have hurt so bad and it has forced me to take my prescription painkillers. I really thought that this third surgery would do the trick but I really don’t feel much of a difference and its been almost 8 weeks. I just don’t understand. I’m having to go to my general doctor at 10:30 today to be sure I don’t have an ear infection so I might ask her opinion. I just wish I could go a week without having to talk to a doctor! Is that too much to ask?

In addition, I am officially alone until Friday. John left with our high schoolers this morning to head to Charleston, SC for a mission trip. I will miss him very much but I know that they will have an AWESOME time. It just one more thing that my health as caused me to miss out on 🙁

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