That is what was written across my forehead as I pushed through yoga yesterday morning. I recently invested in some BondiBands to keep my hair back while working out and I am in love. And if you are wanting to try one out and help a great cause, check out this page! But that isn’t the point of this post.
This has been an interesting week for me as it is my first week of medical leave. I’ve been flaring so it has been all sunshine and roses (plus there was a crisis at work on Monday so I’m still dealing with some work things). One thing is for sure that I have had plenty of time to think.
I started out the week feeling weak and defeated. I felt like a fat blob the first couple days as if I was home because I was lazy. I questioned whether or not I was doing the right thing. I wondered if Abby would grow up hating that she had a sick mom.
Then I went for a walk (in the freezing cold!) and tried to put my thoughts in order. I had some of my favorite songs playing and as usual I felt inspired and reassured. My time off is not a sign of weakness but a sign of strength that I know my body and want to make it better. Its not because I want to sit on the couch and eat bon-bons all day but because I want to be able to run after my daughter and play to her hearts content. I’m not staying home because I’m a bad mother but because I want to be the best mother I can be which at this point requires rest.
Its amazing the things you learn when you take the time to listen.