chronic illness

Surgery Nightmare

Why is it that when you are sick and have trouble sleeping that you have the most bizarre and crazy dreams when you actually get to sleep?

This weekend I had a crazy surgery dream. I was headed in for a D&C. Why I was having a D&C when I have no uterus is beyond me but anyway that is what I remember the doctor referring to my surgery as in my dream. So I head into the city for surgery. I thought it was Atlanta but I was staying at the Westin (not a shabby place to shack up before surgery!)  so maybe I was having surgery in Charlotte.

The time comes for preop and the doctor I’m meeting with was someone I took CPE with last spring. I remember asking for details about the procedure considering I don’t have any female organs left but she said that they were just going to give me a good “cleaning out.”

So surgery time came and I was put under anesthesia. Well my body was – my mind wasn’t. So I could feel everything but couldn’t let the doctors know that I could. You know when you carve a pumpkin and you have to scrap the sides of the inside to make sure you get all the yuck out? That is what they were doing during surgery in my dream. It was like I could hear the scraping sound from pumpkin carving. It was insane.

Needless to say I woke up in a cold sweat. I have no idea what brought on the dream. I remember in Anatomy class reading an article about a woman who woke up during surgery which scarred me for life but I think the fact that my dad woke up too soon during his recent cataract surgery (oops on the anesthesiologist’s part) might have played a role. Regardless of the reason, I was completely freaked out and I still can’t shake the whole pumpkin carving image. *Shudders* Yuck.

Do you have weird dreams? Ever had one that you couldn’t shake for days?


9 comments on “Surgery Nightmare

  1. Mamie says:

    my new meds give me crazy dreams! One night I was living in the old west robbing banks with jude law. We faked our death then hopped on a train and changed our idenities to start a new life. Crazy stuff!
    I was fully awake during a colonoscopy last Jan, awful!! The next one I had to be put under general anesthesia. That’s what happens when you have 4 in one year.

    • Jamee says:

      I’m glad I’m not the only one with crazy dreams then! But OMG – to be awake during a colonoscopy?! My heart goes out to you! That makes me hurt thinking about it!

  2. Katie says:

    I’ve had dreams where people close to me (usually one of my grandfathers) has died. Sometimes I tell people when they’ve appeared in my dreams and it kind of weirds them out. I’ve also had God “speak” (not audibly) through dreams and that freaks me out a bit.


  3. Charlene says:

    I always have the dreams that someone is chasing me and I have no idea who that someone is. Then when I wake up I feel like I have been running. lol. Go figure, I wonder if it could be the man of my dreams. lol

  4. Baffled says:

    WARNIING: This comment is not for the squeemish.
    I have totally weird dreams all the time but your story reminded me both of my C section and my D&C. For my C-section I was awake so I could feel their hands inside me. It was totally weird. All I could feel was hunger and pressure. Freakiest experience of my life. It reminded me of the scene at the end of Braveheart when they eviscerated Mel Gibson. It is burned into my brain and just as vivid now as 17 years ago when it happened.
    The other yucky surgery experience I had was that I really did wake up during my D&C. Boo!! I remeber trying to pull away and then I passed out again. When I woke up I had heavy brusing on both my knees where the assistants must have tried to restrain me. I’ve had many many surgeries and that is by far the worst experience I’ve ever had.
    The other one I wanted to mention is that I purposely stayed awake for my colonoscopy since it is just stuffing a camera up my butt. I loved seeing my insides. I thought it was wicked cool. However, I did sleep through my last one.

    • Jamee says:

      You chose to be awake for your colonoscopy?! Holy cow lady! While I thought seeing the pictures after surgery was intriguing, I definitely didn’t want to experience it first hand! You have serious thrill issues LOL 🙂

  5. Jessica says:

    That is always my fear before having surgery…and I witnessed it at work today! Yup…during a STAT cesarean section my patient who was put under general anesthesia started moving her arms and legs mid-way through the surgery! Thank God she didn’t fully wake or remember it…but I was totally freaked out and scared for her! Makes me nervous about having my upcoming surgery for sure!

  6. Astrid says:

    I’m sorry about the nightmare. When I first started on an antipsychotic, I got nightmares almost every night. It’s now a little less, but I still get them every now and then – which is only in part attributable to the meds, but also to bad childhood memories that I’m processing.

  7. Anne Galivan says:

    I have had crazy dreams all my adult life. I think it has a lot to do with certain personality types.

    Last night I dreamed I was with two of the men from the show “CSI” (the Las Vegas one) someplace in South America (I think) and I was swimming with whales.

    It was definitely a pleasant dream, but weird nonetheless. On the other hand, I would say I more often have unpleasant dreams and sometimes terribly disturbing ones.

    Sorry about your terrifying dream. You are definitely not alone in this problem.


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