The weather this past month has been mostly clouds and rain. Besides the effects that rain has on my joints, I have definitely noticed how it is more greatly affecting my moods.
In the midst of life’s challenges I try to keep a positive outlook and feeling the warmth of the sunshine on my face goes a long way in helping me feel as though I can overcome the hurdles of chronic illness.
The last several weeks, however, the sun has peeked through less and less and I feel as though I have less and less wind in my sails. My pain levels have also been up so I am not sure if my disposition is more directly tied to pain levels or if it is a combination of the two.
The sun make an appearance this morning, albeit a short appearance, but the few moments I was able to take a walk in the sunshine I could feel a change in my thought patterns. As the clouds have rolled back in, I have once again found myself melancholy.
I have so much to be thankful for and excited about in life but lately I am finding it more challenging. I know that there is a time for every season and some seasons in life will be more challenging than others.
Spring is still five weeks away so in the meantime I will keep dreaming of warm sunshine and afternoons spent on the backyard swing.
i love that the days are getting longer! i need the mental boost from sunshine (my doc won’t even begin to try to take me off my anxiety meds in the winter). i’m in an office all day without a window and hate driving to/from work in the dark!!
I am SO looking forward to the days getting longer! I am beginning to wonder if I need to consider medication again. My husband called (shortly after I published this post) and asked how I was and I cried. Sigh.