If you haven’t noticed, there are some big changes going on around here! After lots of planning the new branding is complete and A New Kind of Normal is getting an overhaul thanks to my fabulous designer April from Creative Girl Media! Things will be getting tweaked for the next little bit so thank you in advance for your patience!
I had not planned on spending the last month dropped off the face of the planet. I have been trying everything to put on a happy face and keep pressing forward but instead with each passing day without answers or relief, I felt myself start to withdraw bit by bit. I think you can only hear “there is nothing we can do” so many times before you started to believe it. As my pain continued to go up, my resolve went down. It was a very lonely place to be.
Thankfully, I have been able to turn the corner thanks to the support of my family and friends. My spirit is lighter and my focus is clearer. Despite the continuing high pain levels, I feel reenergized to keep fighting and not allow it to steal my joy and my hope. I set up an appointment next week to meet with my primary endometriosis doctor to come up with a game plan. I am resuming my role as an advocate for my health.
Because of my recent tendency to block myself off, I finally built up the courage to talk with my pain specialist about a handicap placard to use on the hard days. I had been allowing my pain to keep me further blocked off so I wanted to find a way to allow myself to go out on the harder days and have a life outside of my house. I have only used it once as I am still scared to use it because of the fear of judgment but I am working on it. I deserve to have a life and I am learning to use the tools available to help regain control.
For the first time in quite some time, I feel like I am breathing again and rediscovering myself. I am reminded of the promise that God has amazing plans for my life. I am feeling the embrace of those surrounding and supporting me and allowing their strength to carry me when I feel like I’m not able to on my own. I am feeling reenergized to fight against chronic illness with a new blog design and a refreshed spirit.
I can do this.