My apologies from being absent from . . . well . . . everywhere. Since my last trip to the hospital, I have struggled. I feel like I have been treading water just to stay afloat. I’ve wanted to move forward but found myself stuck in the same place.
I’m still really struggling health-wise. I’m still losing weight and not able to eat. My rheumatologist is really worried because I’ve lost a lot of muscle. My joints are ok for the time being but my muscles are in rough shape. I am starting back on Savella so hopefully that will help bring my pain down enough to at least being able to do some exercise to bring back some muscle tone. Fingers crossed that I will have as good of luck this time around on Savella as I did before.
I am also in the process of looking for a counselor to work on my anxiety. Before my last trip to the hospital, I lived in fear of another bowel obstruction but now I also worry about having a repeat performance. I got lucky last time with John coming in when he did but what if next time I’m not as lucky? I know that I can’t live like this. Its not good for me and its not good for my family.
I want to feel whole again so instead of focusing on just my physical health, I want to work on my holistic health. Body, mind, and spirit. I am going back to setting goals like we did for Sharing Our Spoons and sharing them monthly. I would love to have some of you join me and we can walk this journey together!
Thank you so much for all of your continued support and encouragement. It means more than words can explain!