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Day 25: What I’m Missing

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Day 25: Something that you miss

As I mentioned in my 20 facts post, I was a runner throughout high school and college. I was never fast but I was dedicated. I mostly ran the mile and two-mile races during meets and while I was never fast enough to run on the collegiate level, I continued to run throughout college.

 

There is just something about running that I loved. It was more than just the physical activity but it was almost emotional and spiritual at the same time. I have prayed some of the deepest prayers and done the most thinking on runs where its just me and God.

 

I miss it. A lot.

 

Between the pain and crushing fatigue that often accompanies chronic illness, it has just not been in the cards for me lately. There was a period of time after my Celiac diagnosis that I was able to run again for several months before my endometrioisis made its return post-hysterectomy.ย  I was hoping the most recent surgery would have allowed me to get back on the road but haven’t got there.

 

Yet.

 

For the first time in weeks (or maybe in months), I feel encouraged that my pain will not always be this way. Will I ever be completely pain-free? Not likely. However, the constant pelvic pain will hopefully ease up as physical therapy progresses. The first 3 weeks of PT have been very difficult and very painful but for the first time today I didn’t leave the office in tears. Progress. There were definitely some painful moments and I’m still a little crampy but not like last week. Progress. As we get these lower abdominal muscles and pelvic floor muscles loosened up, I should see my pain levels lower. Progress.

 

I love progress. I may never run a marathon but at this point, a jog around the neighborhood would do just fine!

 

And because everyone needs a giggle on a Wednesday, I am pretty sure the following is pretty accurateย  –

What I Look Like When Runningvia



9 comments on “Day 25: What I’m Missing

  1. C.C. @ I'm On My Way ~ my journey as a Christ follower, wife, mamma, and fibromyalgia fighter says:

    I hear ya sister! I didn’t run in high school or college, but did some running in grad school and was training for a half marathon. I miss it so much! It was so peaceful and I loved the rhythm of it.

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    • Jamee says:

      One thing we do know is one day we’ll most definitely be able to lace up our running shoes again one day when we reach the other side!

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  2. Michelle @Special Mom Space says:

    I’m not going to create a post about this but I miss being single. Sorry but I do, especially lately. I feel like my life was more in control then.

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    • Jamee says:

      No need to apologize! This is a safe place & honesty is welcomed ๐Ÿ™‚

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    • Shari~Rain into Rainbows says:

      Awww, sweetie. ๐Ÿ™ I’m so sorry things are rough for you right now. You’re always such an encouragement to me that it hurts my heart to see you hurting. ๐Ÿ™

      Many hugs coming your way….

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  3. cheryl says:

    glad to hear you see some light!! i don’t do pelvic PT but i’m still a big believer in PT generally…it is often WORK but i love knowing i am actively involved in recovery instead of just wishing

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    • Jamee says:

      I totally agree! What I like about the physical therapist I’m seeing know is that pelvic PT is her specialty and the only clients she sees are dealing with PFD so she is very, very knowledgeable about endometriosis and its makes the PT easier (since pelvic floor therapy is pretty personal) knowing she is a specialist in the area!

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  4. Shari~Rain into Rainbows says:

    Yeah, it’s always a good day when you don’t leave PT in tears! ๐Ÿ˜€

    My goal is still to *walk* a 5k. It was supposed to be the Turkey Trot this past Thanksgiving. Now it’s still my goal for this Thanksgiving. I’m gonna try, that’s for sure.

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