Brain overload!

John and I just got back from our first adoption seminar and I believe my brain is mush! It was so much information! Of course they started with a video showing past matches at the time of adoption and where they are now and they had the song “When Love Takes You In” by 4Him and we both cried! It showed a couple when they first laid eyes on their baby and they both covered their mouths and began to cry and I know that is what John and I will look like! We both have tender hearts (i.e. we cry easy) so I may not be able to hold the kid b/c I’ll be crying so much! But we are SO excited! They discussed both domestic and international so John went to domestic and I went to international and we swapped stories on the way home. We are not 100% decided on this agency. They were great but we still want to look into one or two more agencies (which they encouraged us to do). So we are completely overwhelmed but completely overjoyed! We pulled out information from other agencies when we got even though we said that we would wait until tomorrow! It is just so exciting to know that we are getting closer to becoming parents!

Here are the lyrics to the song they used for the video (which is SO perfect!):

When Love Takes You In
written by Steven Curtis Chapman
I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream
Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in
And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could evercause this love to lose its hold
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in

I have been tagged! Just for fun :)

4 jobs that I have had:
1. Wendy’s
2. Peebles
3. Book Warehouse
4. GWU

4 movies I’ve watched more than 10 times:
1. Finding Nemo
2. Sweet Home Alabama
3. A Walk to Remember
4. Skeleton Key

4 TV shows I watch:
1. CSI
2. House
3. Bones
4. American Idol

4 Places I’ve visited:
1. New Zealand
2.Australia
3. Pheonix, AZ
4. Quebec

4 People that email me regularly:
1. John
2. Dad
3. Preston
4. Wayne

4 of my favorite foods:
1. Pepperoni & Pineapple Pizza
2. Anything sweet
3. Teriyaki Chicken
4. Mexican

4 places that I would like to visit:
1.Cancun
2.The Holy Land
3. NYC
4. The Bahamas

4 things that I am looking forward to in the coming year:
1. Going on vacation
2. Starting a pain-free chapter of life after surgery
3. Starting the adoption process
4. Reaching my goal weight

I tag Janna (Heartstrings) next!

I had a breakdown after work

It all came out of nowhere. I was checking out one of the message boards I frequest for ladies who have had success after infertility and was overcome with emotion. Not that I am not happy or ecstatic for these ladies as many of them I have shared good times and bad throughout various treatments. But it hit me hard that I will NEVER be able to share what they are now experiencing. I will never be able to post BFP! I will never get to experience the joy of seeing the heartbeat on an ultrasound for the first time. Or be holding my husband’s hand when we find out what sex our baby is. I will never have a cute baby bump or feel my child growing inside of me. It just hit me really hard today. Not that I am not thoroughly excited about adopting because I am absolutely THRILLED to start the process. I just believe that I’m still in the grieving process. I may not breakdown over it again or I may breakdown on the way home from class. I am justmoving along trusting God for my next steps.

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