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Worth It All

This has been a hard week for me in terms of dealing with my infertility struggles. Usually I can keep a pretty good grip on my emotions when friends or family announce their pregnancies as I really am happy for them. I wouldn’t wish infertility on anyone so I am happy to see them excited about their new addition on the way.

 

Yet in the midst of the excitement for them, I feel an all to familiar pain in my heart as for a moment my mind flashes back to the negative pregnancy tests, fertility procedures, and finally sobbing in my doctor’s office as we discuss a hysterectomy. For a moment, I acknowledge  that loss and allow myself to grieve. I allow the tears to flow and lift a prayer up to God asking for peace and comfort.

 

It is then that my thoughts turn to my beautiful daughter that I am so incredibly blessed to be called her mommy. It is then that I remember the day we got the phone call and my husband walked into my office with pink roses and announced we had a daughter. It is then I remember how it feels when she hugs me around the neck and says, “I love you Mommy!”

 

It is then that I realize it was worth it all.

My beautiful cowgirl

11 comments on “Worth It All

  1. C.C. @ I'm On My Way ~ my journey as a Christ follower, wife, mamma, and fibromyalgia fighter says:

    I feel your pain. Much <3 and prayers!

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  2. Jessica says:

    So incredibly inspiring, on a very personal level for me. I needed to see a post like this today. Thank you! Hold that adorable little girl of yours tightly! 🙂

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  3. Missy says:

    Love this post. You are the perfect mommy that God designed for her!

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  4. She is so gorgeous! You’re a lucky mama, and she’s a lucky kiddo! So glad you have each other to bring all that extra joy.

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    • Jamee says:

      Thank you so much! Its funny now that Abby is a little older we can see her becoming more like us in her mannerisms and how she talks! DNA not necessary! 🙂

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  5. RachelAllison says:

    Beautiful post! And a beautiful daughter! 🙂

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  6. Missy says:

    I cannot imagine the pain. I am so sorry and I pray that while you will never forget, but that you will heal.
    Your little girl is absolutely beautiful.

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