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Friday Words of Faith: My Hope

I was asked on Tuesday, “What do you hope for most: today, tomorrow, or long-term?”  I sat and pondered this question for quite awhile as I shared in yesterday’s post.  But even after responded, the question remained in my thoughts.  As I sat in the doctor’s office yesterday afternoon, my mind was flooded with thoughts.

It has been quite an emotional week for me.  Tuesday I spent 10 minutes in the bathroom at work crying after hearing about a coworker being devastated at the thought of being pregnant.  I cried over my frustration with fibromyalgia that it hurt to style my hair because my joints were throbbing so bad.  I hated myself for laying down to take a nap Monday evening but not waking up until the next morning and missing out on spending the evening with John, Abby, and my mom.  This week was just one of those week’s where I could give chronic illness the middle finger and move on.  But of course, I am a lady and would never do such a thing (ha!).

So as I sat in the room at the doctor’s office, I asked myself, “Where does my hope rest really?”  Does it rest on whether or not my doctor finds something on the ultrasound I am getting ready to have?  Does it rest on the forecast for lower humidity for the weekend?  Does it rest on Abby finally cutting that last molar and sleeping through the night?

Of course my answer should be “My hope rests in Christ.”  It’s easy to say that.  Every Sunday morning we say some variation of the same statement and work really hard to make sure others believe us.  We may even do a pretty good job of convincing ourselves of that too.

Don’t get me wrong, my love and passion for Christ go to the deepest depths of my heart and soul and my faith is solid.  My everything rests in God and His unending grace and mercy.  But I would be lying if I said that it wasn’t a daily struggle to keep my focus and hope in the correct place.  So each day I have a choice.  I can pick up my cross and follow Him which often requires trusting in the things unseen.  That is the definition of hope.  Each day I can choose to step up to the ledge, stretch out my arms, and fall back knowing He will always be there to catch me.

So today I choose hope for today, tomorrow, and eternity.


just for fun

You asked, I’ve responded!

Thank you everyone for your response’s to Tuesdays “Let’s Talk about YOU” post!  Loved reading everyone’s answers!

As promised, here are my answer’s to Tuesday’s questions!

  1. What is your favorite color?  tie between pink and black
  2. What is one beauty product that you cannot live without? mascara but primer is a close 2nd!
  3. What is your favorite thing about summer?  vacation!
  4. What is your least favorite thing about summer? ugh the humidity!
  5. Do you or someone you love have a chronic illness? I have endometriosis, fibromyalgia, and Celiac disease.  My hubby is a Type 1 Diabetic and we are both infertile.
  6. Where is you favorite place to shop? Maurices
  7. Do you blog?  (I would think this would be an automatic yes but you never know!)  What is your blog address?  Obviously 🙂

Here are some of the questions you had for me!

Michelle asked – “What is your best memory of your childhood?” Definitely family vacations which almost always included amusement parks!  We are a roller coaster loving family 🙂

Allie asked – “Do you have a favorite movie?”  Tough one!  I love Sweet Home Alabama and Hope Floats.  Pretty much anything with Sandra Bullock Reese Witherspoon (with the exception of Cruel Intentions) works for me!

The Thought Bubble and Megan asked – “If you had an unlimited budget, where would you travel and what would you do?” I really really love New Zealand so I would most definitely love to go back to Whitianga for an extended vacation (like live there permanently)!  Here is a lovely pic of this little piece of heaven:

Cathedral Cove - Whitianga

Katie asked “Can I come play with Abby when I get back?”  Of course 🙂

Mamie asked “Are you following a diet for weigh loss? you look fab!!!”  Thank you my dear!  Other than following a gluten-free diet, I wouldn’t necessarily say that I’m doing a specific diet for weight loss.  I am mainly watching portion sizes and trying to make smart choices.  But it helps the waistline when you have to end your love affair with pizza and oreos 🙂

Pepper asked “Will you make this a meme?”  Absolutely!  Starting next Tuesday I will post another set of 7 questions and there will be a link-up provided where you can answer your questions as well as get your blog readers involved!  Talk about YOU Tuesdays will begin August 3rd!

Jane in Australia asked “What do you hope for most: today, tomorrow, or long-term?”  That is a tough one!  I will have to say that I am learning to live in the “now’ and for today.  For so long, I kept saying “when this happens” or “when that happens” that I felt like I was totally missing out on what I had going on now and missing the joys of living for today.  Not that I don’t have hope for the future but I’m enjoying learning to live in the present.

Mo asked, “What is your favorite food to eat now that you are dieting?”  That’s a tough one!  I’m still exploring the gluten-free world but I love Enjoy Life’s Beach Bash Trail Mix!  So yummy!

weight loss

Wednesday Weigh-in – The Countdown

Yes today is a countdown!  5 days until the start of a new challenge over at the Sisterhood!  August 1 starts the Down & Dirty in 30 Challenge!  Doesn’t it sound like fun?!  And what makes it more exciting is that its a TEAM challenge!!!  Yay!!!  I can hardly contain my excitement!  If you want more info, check out the details here and you can find out where to RSVP to get on a team!

Now that I’ve got everyone all pumped up about the new challenge, it’s time to get down to business – the weigh-in.  I hopped on the scale this morning with my eyes closed and peeked at the number with one eye – 137.4. Not bad.  I won’t even count that as a gain – more of maintaining.  Especially considering I lived off of milkshakes this weekend after having my wisdom tooth pulled.  Now if I had been smart and planned properly, I could have stocked up on protien shakes or Ensure (if either are GF) and saved some calories but alas, I didn’t and soaked up the opportunity to indulge.  So now its back on the wagon and off to the races!  Only 12.4 pounds until I reach my goal weight!

I am also officially halfway through Couch to 5k!  I totally kicked Week 4 Day 2 this morning (and only felt like I was going to fall over versus die this time!).  I am glad I repeated week 4.  I definitely needed it!  But I must admit I fear for what week 5 has in store!  But I’ve still got week 4 to finish so I will concentrate on that for now and leave the fear for next Monday!

So here are the stats:

Starting weight: 164.4

Last week’s weigh-in: 137.2
Today’s weigh-in: 137.4
Change: +.02

Overall Change: -27.0