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Monday Project #3 & Top 10 List all in one!

Rethink Your Shrink, The Monday ProjectIt’s that time again for our homework Monday  Project over at the Sisterhood.  The great thing about the Rethink Your Shrink challenge is that its not just about weight loss and getting to a healthy weight but its also about having a positive self-image and having a health concept of oneself.  This week’s project exemplifies just that!

If you check out this week’s project it says, “we’re giving you a license to talk some wonderful talk about yourselves. When we link up on Friday, we want you to list 5 reasons why you totally ROCK.”

Honestly, I would have never sat down to do this on my own.  Five reasons why I rock?  I mean I joke about how awesome I am all the time but do I really believe it?  Honestly probably not.  Having a healthy self-esteem has always been something on my to-do list that I’ve never really accomplished.  Up until recently one of my common phrases was “My body hates me” as that is how I had felt.  For years I had felt betrayed by my body.  I was a young adult that instead of being active and spending nights out on the town with my husband, I was at home (most of the time in bed) in pain.  Then when we started TTC and couldn’t get pregnant (or stay pregnant) I felt that my body had turned against me even more.  Then came the big moment.  My hysterectomy.  The ultimate betrayal.  It was so hard physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  I definitely did not have a good image of myself or my body.

Thankfully I have made some progress and I am proud to admit that you know why, I do rock!  So here is my list of not only 5 reasons but 10 reasons why I rock:

1 – Because I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139).  It has taken me years to accept this but I have come to realize that God says that about me.  He looks down and says that I am beautiful and wonderfully made (in His image no less).  How can I not accept that?  If God says it, then surely it is true.

2 – I am strong.  Ok maybe not muscle strong (yet) but otherwise, totally.  I handled 4 surgeries in 4 1/2 years.  I work full-time, attend grad school, and I am a new mom.  Is it easy?  Absolutely not.  But am I strong because of it?  Absolutely!

3 – I am a pretty smart cookie aka I am a nerd.  I have always done well in school because I’ve worked really hard at it and its a gift that God has given me.  I graduated undergrad with honors and a 3.8 GPA and will likely graduate seminary with a 3.6 GPA.  I am pretty darn proud of that.

4 – I have a great sense of direction.  Typically once I visit a place once, I never have trouble finding it again.  While I am glad my blackberry has a navigation app, I can do a pretty good job old-schooling it with a map.

5 – I make a mean lasagna.

6 – I am musically talented and I am so thankful that God blessed me with this gift.  I majored in music in undergrad and while music ed didn’t turn out to be my calling, I enjoyed every bit of the experience.  I can play multiple instruments and have a pretty decent singing ability.  Music is definitely a big part of my worship.

7 – I am discerning.  I am not an outgoing person by any stretch of the imagination.  Sometimes I can be downright backwards, but while I may be quiet I am very observant.  I am a lot like Gibbs in that I can pretty much count on my gut being right (what?  you don’t know how Gibbs is?!  Shame on you!  You need to start watching NCIS pronto!)

8 – I picked me out an awesome husband.  I knew right away with that first talk at the coffeeshop that he would make an awesome husband so I scooped him up right away.  Turns out I was absolutely right!  Ok maybe this actually shows how much he rocks but I do get some credit for saying yes right?  (LOL)

9 – I am pretty handy around the house.  I am pretty good when it comes to building something or putting something together (except that time I tried to fix the kitchen sink —- very bad idea).  I think my husband will admit that I am the handyman (er..handywoman) around the house!  (but he still rocks)

10 – I have the ability to love myself.  Its taken me awhile to get here but I do.  I honestly can say that I love myself even if I’ll never be model skinny.  My self-worth is based on something much deeper and bigger than my appearance.  My self-worth relies on the fact that I am a child of God and it doesn’t get any better than that! 

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Wednesday Weigh-in

Rethink Your Shrink!Well, actually, I’ll have to go off my Monday weigh-in today as I really don’t think its possible to get an accurate weigh-in on crutches.  That’s right ladies and gents CRUTCHES.  My oh-so graceful self fell down a couple brick stairs carrying a basket of laundry last night (the laundry room in our apartment complex is in a different building).  It was dark and I am clumsy.  Those two things don’t go too well together.  But the good news was that I didn’t spill the laundry!  The basket stayed upright.  LOL.  After the fall I somehow managed to get myself and the laundry back to my apartment and waited for John to come home (he and Abby had went to a youth basketball game).  My ankle was already starting to swell and turn colors by the time he arrives.  Thankfully we have some wonderful friends nearby who watched Abby while we went to the ER.

Thankfully the ER was practically empty when we arrived and we were in and out in a little over an hour (thankfully we arrived when we did because on our way out there was actually a huge line just to check-in).   After a couple x-rays, the doc let us know the bad news which was that I didn’t have a fracture (hey those were her words!).  Instead I just had a nasty sprain which may take just as long or longer to heal than if I had fractured it.  So they wrapped it and sent me home with an ice bag and some crutches.  Ugly gray crutches.  I have decided a business that I would like to start.  I want to make rockin’ crutches, canes, and wheelchair covers.  I was just thinking about all of the children, teens, and heck young adults that spend a lot of time either in a wheel chair or using crutches or canes and dangit they deserve to have some cool options such as hot pink crutches (which I would much rather be sporting) or a superman wheelchair.  Just a thought that I had while waiting in the exam room last night.

But this is suppose to be a post about my weigh-in right?  Since I can’t get on the scale today, I will post my weight from Monday.  My weight Monday was 161.4 which was the exact same as last week’s weigh-in.  No gain or loss which I will take since I definitely wasn’t as on-task as I should have been.  It just stinks that for the next couple weeks, I will be very limited in working out so I will have to be very very cautious of my diet and be sure that I go back to writing everything down.  I’m just disappointed that I probably will not make my 3 month goal BUT I will not let that stop me from trying my hardest to get there!

Starting weight:  164.4
3 month goal (3/9/10): 149.4

Last weigh-in:  161.4
Today’s weigh-in:  161.4
Change:  0

Overall Change:  -3