faith

Amazing Grace

“Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)”
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I’m found
Was blind, but now I see’
Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I’ve been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbid to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine
Dear heavenly Father–Thank you so much for the amazing grace You so freely offer. You are my everything. When I start to lose hope, You always give reminders that You are there and have a plan. When I start to question, You remind me that I don’t need to understand. I just need to trust. Just as this song says, You have promised good to me and I can stand on that promise. God I don’t know what is going on with my body and if the endo is gone or has returned. I don’t know the effects that fibromyalgia has on my body except that I know that it hurts. But God I know that You know everything and You are the Great Physician. I turn all of this over to You as You are my portion and my shield. I love you more than words can express. In your Precious Son’s holy name–Amen
chronic illness

Back at work :(

Today is my second day at work and I’m wondering if six weeks was long enough. I am completely overwhelmed and exhausted. My hormones are way out of whack after adding to my HRT. I could honestly cry! I wish my husband was home and not away on a youth trip 🙁

chronic illness

Only 2 more days of freedom

Then its back to work I go! My post-op appointment went as well as can be expected. I am cleared to go back to work and to slowly start returning to normal activity. She added a small dose of estrogen to my hormone replacement regimen but I am not sure how well I will tolerate it. I’ve take two doses now and I just feel yucky. I know that my body will have to readjust to the hormone so hopefully in a couple days I will feel better. She gave good advice though. For both John & I, she “prescribed” having fun and enjoying each other. She is really excited for us to be adopting but she wants us to be sure to enjoy this time we have together! And I wholeheartedly agree! I’m so excited about this new chapter of life! So come Monday, I will return to work and John will head off to youth camp. At least I won’t feel guilty if I come home from work and go straight to bed! The girls will probaby have a tough time adjusting since they have been used to me being home with them these last six weeks but I’m sure they will survive. They will drive me bananas but they will survive 🙂 So I have posted these pictures in honor of our girls!