chronic illness

Overwhelmed by kindness

When I checked my blog I was overwhelmed by the kind and encouraging words left by so many of you! My eyes teared up and my heart was full of emotion! I would never have imagined having the kind of support network that God has provided me with and that I would have so many women, many of whom I have never met, praying for me and encouraging me in so many ways! So in the words of Paul, I thank God upon every rememberance of all of you ladies who mean so much to me! (Phil 1:3)

I am doing much better today. I went to the doctor this morning because I thought I had a UTI but the test came back negative and everything looked great! So that is good but I’m still unsure about some of the pain I’ve been feeling. I’m not sure what is “normal” with healing from a hysterectomy and what I should be worried about. Especially after all of the scar tissue that they found, I am worried that I will end up with complications due to scar tissue. Like I know that my intestines are not attached the way that they are suppose to be and they had adhered to my uterus at the point of surgery, so what will keep them from adhering to my pelvic/abdominal wall? I know part of the worry comes from dealing with chronic illness for 5 years and I really REALLY want to be positive and know that that part of my life is over and a new endo-free chapter of life is about to begin but it’s hard. So I’m just giving it up to God because I know He is in control and that He has it all planned out!

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The Joys of Menopause

The side effects of menopause have definitely kicked in full swing today. I have been SUPER emotional and have had hot flashes that could probably have toasted marshmallows. Last night I woke up several times drenched in sweat. And unfortunately I’m still stuck to sleeping on my back so I had no options to reposition myself to get more comfortable.

Oh and for the record, if I have one more person tell me how good I look, I may go into a hormonal rage.

Yay for menopause!

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Finally out of the hospital!

I got released this morning! FINALLY! Surgery was more complicated than anticipated. And my doctor said that if we had not scheduled this surgery now, we would be in surgery probably under an emergancy situation within a couple months. She decided to start the surgery laparscopically on my right side since that tended to be my “good side.” But she was shocked at what she saw. My right ovary was completed buried in scar tissue and my ureter had also been caught in the damage. She didn’t want to do any organ damage so she had to do the full incision (its about 6 inches I guess–from hip bone to hip bone). My left side was even worse. My ovary was roughly the same size as my uterus due to a very large cyst and other endo damage. And the back of my uterus was adhered to my small intestines. At least now I am sure that I wasn’t making up the pain! Endo was also on my bowels and bladder. She was floored because while I’ve always had a complicated case, it has NEVER been like this! And it has only been one year since my last lap with one of the top specialists in the nation (who said that I would only have a 9% chance of coming back). So I’m looking at a full six week recovery (boo!). I’m just wanting all of the gas pain to go away! I honestly look at least 4 months pregnant! And of course my room was on the same hall as L&D so every walk I took took me by the nursery. But surprisingly I was ok with it. I’ve only had one hormonal breakdown. Night sweats have been a royal b!tch but I start HRT today. Because of the endo complications found in surgery, I am no longer a candidate for estrogen replacement but hopefully progesterone alone will provide enought relief!