I am officially 1 dpiui and my nerves are already tore up! It doesn’t help that my butt is still extremely sore. I just can’t seem to keep my mind off of anything else. I am waiting for a huge report to finish running here at work so I thought I might be able to clear my mind so I can stay focused. At least for a little while! I honestly don’t know how I am going to last until August 10th without going crazy! I had the WEIRDEST dreams last night and I hardly got any sleep. I love having my two dogs but I can’t handle having three! We are petsitting my parents dog for the week and our house is nuts! Chloe is used to sleeping in bed with us at night (thank goodness Charlie is anal about having space when she sleeps so she sleeps on the floor) but Bre is used to sleeping in the bed as well. So needless-to-say between John, myself, and these two dogs there isn’t a whole lot of space! I just feel so exhausted! At least we have only got another two nights of this! I am so ready for the weekend to catch up on some sleep…..
We had the IUI this morning around 9:45am. John couldn’t be with me because of a children’s event at church and I so wish that he could have been there to hold my hand. The whole process was definitely far from comfortable! I felt like I was some sort of science experiment! My doctor’s office has had a nurse practioner student for the last couple weeks and she had never seen an insemination before so she sat in on mine. So there I am with all of my female glory on display! LOL! My doctor kept asking the nurse for various instruments and the whole time I kept thinking, “Holy cow woman! How many things are you going to stick up there??” Then she said, “Jamee, I’m sorry but you are not going to like me much right now” and then..pinch..holy moly! But the pain passed quickly at least! So within 15 mintues the whole procedure was over. But I got to lay down for another 20 minutes just for good measure. She gave me a test date of August 10th if nothing else happens before then. Do you know how far off that is? That is 18 days away! How am I going to make it?? My nerves are on edge now! Holy moly. I’m going to have to start a new hobby to keep my mind off of it! But to end with something funny, throughout the whole procedure I had Dora from Finding Nemo in my head singing “Just keep swimming….” You hear that boys?
I can’t believe how much my butt hurts! I got a shot in each hip and I am in so much pain! It hurts to sit, to climb the stairs, or to lay on my side! Sleeping should be interesting! Plus add in the fact that I am completely on edge about tomorrow–I am going to need to be medicated to get any sleep! I’m excited about tomorrow but also extremely nervous. I’m even concerned over what to wear! LOL! While there is no denying that God lined everything up perfectly this month for this IUI to take place, I am still scared of getting my hopes up only to get shot down. I have so many emotions running through my heart and my mind! Ugh…infertility is such an emotional rollercoaster. I’m not sure how much longer I can do this!